why

I am so fucking stressed lately I’m gonna rip my fucking head off. I have so much to catch up with in school, I’m failing everything and my parents won’t cut me any fucking slack whatsoever. My chemistry teacher keeps marking me absent even though I’m there everyday and so the school calls my house and my mom starts bitching at me. And worst of all I’m still fucking haunted by the fact that one of my closest friends decided to fucking start talking to my ex, of three years on and off, without even mentioning shit to me. I fucking asked him and everything. I’m happy for her and what not, but why the fucking fuck did it have to be him, anyone but him and I would’ve been okay. And this is the only friend I have who puts his “bros” before everything else and now this shit. everyone keeps telling me to get over it already but they can kiss my ass, they have no idea what the fuck it feels like. I know I treated her like shit, like, I was horrible to her she deserved much better, I really didn’t deserve her at all, I have no idea why she stuck with me. but why the fuck, did it have to be him. I asked her to hang with me last weekend but she never texted me, I only wanted to talk to her and shit. And it sucks cause I have her in my fucking english class. I am such a depressed fuck it’s insane. Fucking hate when I get like this